That sounds so hard, I’m sorry you’ve got that to deal with.Counselling undid me. I was asked to 'revisit' things in the past and then left high and dry with the demon cell door wide open and nobody willing, able or confident enough to help me deal with the stuff that I unleashed into my NOW life.
I have an old history of physical abuse that at times made me think I might actually be accidentally killed. I have very big issues trusting strangers and authority and a startle reflex that is hair trigger. Just the toaster popping or the postman knocking sends my shoulders into my ears and makes my stomach lurch and my adrenal system fires me into run or fight type brain scenario, several times a day just by ordinary things happening. It's debilitating and embarrassing.
Does anyone normal find they are holding their breath and lurking at the far end of the room when the phone rings? It's bonkers and yet I can't switch it off or control it, it just happens and has been happening for a long time.
I've just had a letter this week to say my case has now been referred to specialist therapy for someone with aspergers and trauma. It has taken four years for me to get through the system to the right people to help me with the all these left over physical and mental issues.
A lot of my issues have been put down to being on the spectrum, obviously not all are, but it's been difficult for MH people to isolate these things when they just tend to see 'the aspergers person' and treat or don't treat accordingly.
What did not help at all and made things very much less manageable was discussing what happened in gory detail and then walking back into life alone and unsupported. Things got a lot worse after that, not better.
I'm very nervous because I have had so much failure on this so far, but I'm really hoping that someone is going to be able to help me effectively brain train to switch off the flight or fight that has become an uncontrollable state of bodily reaction to unexpected people, situations and noises.
I'd really like to break free from the prison of having an automatic terror reaction to what are and should be very normal life scenarios. I am a meditator and have done yoga for years, but what happens to me is a bit like what and how you'd feel if you had a large spider thrown on you whilst meditating.
Unexpected people or noises for me, is the large and unexpected spider on the yoga mat, daily, several times a day sometimes.
It's why I am now self employed and work in isolation at home. I can only keep my unwanted and unneeded fear reactions at a physically and mentally manageable level by sheltering myself from strangers and unexpected stuff. I am basically a self imposed hermit.
Which is tough, but it works whilst nothing else is yet. I am hoping the none talking PTSD treatment is going to work and help my brain and body get down to a mild panic instead of a wildly horrible feeling over reaction.
Thanks Idle Worm and this is going to sound minimizing, but I am honestly so used to feeling like this that I just find ways to live around it and I do have a largely happy and good life by managing the situations that make things less good. I'm not in any actual danger these days and haven't been for a long time, this stuff is just left over residual brain crap that I haven't found a way of shutting off yet.That sounds so hard, I’m sorry you’ve got that to deal with.
I'm so sorry that life is like this for you. I can't begin to imagine hard it isCounselling undid me. I was asked to 'revisit' things in the past and then left high and dry with the demon cell door wide open and nobody willing, able or confident enough to help me deal with the stuff that I unleashed into my NOW life.
I have an old history of physical abuse that at times made me think I might actually be accidentally killed. I have very big issues trusting strangers and authority and a startle reflex that is hair trigger. Just the toaster popping or the postman knocking sends my shoulders into my ears and makes my stomach lurch and my adrenal system fires me into run or fight type brain scenario, several times a day just by ordinary things happening. It's debilitating and embarrassing.
Does anyone normal find they are holding their breath and lurking at the far end of the room when the phone rings? It's bonkers and yet I can't switch it off or control it, it just happens and has been happening for a long time.
I've just had a letter this week to say my case has now been referred to specialist therapy for someone with aspergers and trauma. It has taken four years for me to get through the system to the right people to help me with the all these left over physical and mental issues.
A lot of my issues have been put down to being on the spectrum, obviously not all are, but it's been difficult for MH people to isolate these things when they just tend to see 'the aspergers person' and treat or don't treat accordingly.
What did not help at all and made things very much less manageable was discussing what happened in gory detail and then walking back into life alone and unsupported. Things got a lot worse after that, not better.
I'm very nervous because I have had so much failure on this so far, but I'm really hoping that someone is going to be able to help me effectively brain train to switch off the flight or fight that has become an uncontrollable state of bodily reaction to unexpected people, situations and noises.
I'd really like to break free from the prison of having an automatic terror reaction to what are and should be very normal life scenarios. I am a meditator and have done yoga for years, but what happens to me is a bit like what and how you'd feel if you had a large spider thrown on you whilst meditating.
Unexpected people or noises for me, is the large and unexpected spider on the yoga mat, daily, several times a day sometimes.
It's why I am now self employed and work in isolation at home. I can only keep my unwanted and unneeded fear reactions at a physically and mentally manageable level by sheltering myself from strangers and unexpected stuff. I am basically a self imposed hermit.
Which is tough, but it works whilst nothing else is yet. I am hoping the none talking PTSD treatment is going to work and help my brain and body get down to a mild panic instead of a wildly horrible feeling over reaction.
I have a lot of happy and love and great stuff in my life as well. That keeps me OK and going at it. Thanks for the love, you're a peach DC xxI'm so sorry that life is like this for you. I can't begin to imagine hard it is![]()
That sounds absolutely horrendous DC. I’m so sorry. There are lots of other ways to work with trauma other than counselling. I hope you find something that helps you.Counselling undid me. I was asked to 'revisit' things in the past and then left high and dry with the demon cell door wide open and nobody willing, able or confident enough to help me deal with the stuff that I unleashed into my NOW life.
I have an old history of physical abuse that at times made me think I might actually be accidentally killed. I have very big issues trusting strangers and authority and a startle reflex that is hair trigger. Just the toaster popping or the postman knocking sends my shoulders into my ears and makes my stomach lurch and my adrenal system fires me into run or fight type brain scenario, several times a day just by ordinary things happening. It's debilitating and embarrassing.
Does anyone normal find they are holding their breath and lurking at the far end of the room when the phone rings? It's bonkers and yet I can't switch it off or control it, it just happens and has been happening for a long time.
I've just had a letter this week to say my case has now been referred to specialist therapy for someone with aspergers and trauma. It has taken four years for me to get through the system to the right people to help me with the all these left over physical and mental issues.
A lot of my issues have been put down to being on the spectrum, obviously not all are, but it's been difficult for MH people to isolate these things when they just tend to see 'the aspergers person' and treat or don't treat accordingly.
What did not help at all and made things very much less manageable was discussing what happened in gory detail and then walking back into life alone and unsupported. Things got a lot worse after that, not better.
I'm very nervous because I have had so much failure on this so far, but I'm really hoping that someone is going to be able to help me effectively brain train to switch off the flight or fight that has become an uncontrollable state of bodily reaction to unexpected people, situations and noises.
I'd really like to break free from the prison of having an automatic terror reaction to what are and should be very normal life scenarios. I am a meditator and have done yoga for years, but what happens to me is a bit like what and how you'd feel if you had a large spider thrown on you whilst meditating.
Unexpected people or noises for me, is the large and unexpected spider on the yoga mat, daily, several times a day sometimes.
It's why I am now self employed and work in isolation at home. I can only keep my unwanted and unneeded fear reactions at a physically and mentally manageable level by sheltering myself from strangers and unexpected stuff. I am basically a self imposed hermit.
Which is tough, but it works whilst nothing else is yet. I am hoping the none talking PTSD treatment is going to work and help my brain and body get down to a mild panic instead of a wildly horrible feeling over reaction.
That sounds so tough. I'm all for closing a door on something that you don't want to think about. I'm successful during the day, but less so at night, when my worries come out to play and I often find it difficult to fall asleep. I hope the treatment works for you, @DinosaurChickensCounselling undid me. I was asked to 'revisit' things in the past and then left high and dry with the demon cell door wide open and nobody willing, able or confident enough to help me deal with the stuff that I unleashed into my NOW life.
I have an old history of physical abuse that at times made me think I might actually be accidentally killed. I have very big issues trusting strangers and authority and a startle reflex that is hair trigger. Just the toaster popping or the postman knocking sends my shoulders into my ears and makes my stomach lurch and my adrenal system fires me into run or fight type brain scenario, several times a day just by ordinary things happening. It's debilitating and embarrassing.
Does anyone normal find they are holding their breath and lurking at the far end of the room when the phone rings? It's bonkers and yet I can't switch it off or control it, it just happens and has been happening for a long time.
I've just had a letter this week to say my case has now been referred to specialist therapy for someone with aspergers and trauma. It has taken four years for me to get through the system to the right people to help me with the all these left over physical and mental issues.
A lot of my issues have been put down to being on the spectrum, obviously not all are, but it's been difficult for MH people to isolate these things when they just tend to see 'the aspergers person' and treat or don't treat accordingly.
What did not help at all and made things very much less manageable was discussing what happened in gory detail and then walking back into life alone and unsupported. Things got a lot worse after that, not better.
I'm very nervous because I have had so much failure on this so far, but I'm really hoping that someone is going to be able to help me effectively brain train to switch off the flight or fight that has become an uncontrollable state of bodily reaction to unexpected people, situations and noises.
I'd really like to break free from the prison of having an automatic terror reaction to what are and should be very normal life scenarios. I am a meditator and have done yoga for years, but what happens to me is a bit like what and how you'd feel if you had a large spider thrown on you whilst meditating.
Unexpected people or noises for me, is the large and unexpected spider on the yoga mat, daily, several times a day sometimes.
It's why I am now self employed and work in isolation at home. I can only keep my unwanted and unneeded fear reactions at a physically and mentally manageable level by sheltering myself from strangers and unexpected stuff. I am basically a self imposed hermit.
Which is tough, but it works whilst nothing else is yet. I am hoping the none talking PTSD treatment is going to work and help my brain and body get down to a mild panic instead of a wildly horrible feeling over reaction.
Hi Cake, yes I got my appointment shifted to early January and said I was happy to wait until then.Oh no @DinosaurChickens hoping you've had some progress now.
I'm suffering a bit after taking on a task that I probably shouldn't have done. I'm now worrying I've done it wrong. It's over now and nothing further can be done even if it was a bit wrong. Anyway, lesson learnt.
I have in general managed to Keep It Simple Stupid and not get involved in a couple of other things so there's some progress. Acknowledging I'm a fixer and someone who needs to get involved, has really opened my eyes. My plan for 2021 is to focus on my mental health and avoid my triggers. Onwards and upwards. I've also joined a mental health forum and emailed about some therapy too.